It's like making a note. I do everything following my heart. If sometime after I don't have to taste so many pain, I want myself to remember these painful things. They are just the source of my strength.
1. loneliness
It comes with me from my borth. I don't feel like talking with strangers. Because loneliness comes with me all the time. But it had a little change after my teacher told me to share with other children. In my deep side of heart SHARE is a good thing I think I like it. Even after I became better and better after falling ill the desire to SHARE became a natrual thing.
2.bad memory
O my god.. This is really a shit for me which still effects me now. When I was in the hospital, I can not remember even how to say seven days.. Although my doctor told me that it can recover after some rehabilitation trains, I still suddenly forget something or maybe do some obviously silly wrong things.. Really hope that someday I can really recover from this bad memory..
3.illness and no hope for the future
You know when u've got something with a terminal illness, it can not be described only by hopeless. It's the end of the world. Eternal darkness falls down over me. My eyes became blind, and even when the day has been adjudged I still can't believe it - maybe it's a joke from my teacher and parents, or maybe it's just a dream but it seems that I can not wake up. I sinked under ground forever.
There can be more to record, but tomorrow I will return to work where I can see him once more. Have a sweet sweet dream to prepare a nice mood and a sweet smile if I bang into him again:D
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